I could´ve done so many things. Wait! This ain´t no regret I´m basically saying.. you know me! I mean couple of years ago if I would´ve been on the same spot I´m right now I´d have done so many evil, immature, etc... Now I just think.. well "What´s the point?" "Why would I do it?" "what´s in it for me ? will it really make me feel good and proud of myself?" No! It´s just NOT worth it. I´d rather spend my time doin´something else cuz it´s really NOT worth it believe me. You are reading it from the MAN who´ve done it so many times and you only feel good for a short period of time and then you kinda think about it. At some point you might think or feel bad for the other/s. Such a great great great STEP ahead. The end of the ladder is shorter now or NOT! Everytime I wanna sit down and vomit all this thoughts I have somethign to do... I gotta run.. Im finally meeting with "Joane" who I really miss. We connect pretty damn well!
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I don´t have that much time cuz I have to get ready and leave in a little while. But I would love to drop at least a few lines for yall. I guess sometimes and when I say sometimes I mean repeatedly (lmao) I tend to know what I´m about to do and I know how I will react, obviously we are not gonna mention good examples cuz those are the ones that we are cool with. Anyway, I´m happy I just know me more than my own ME. That´s why I know that when I need help I use my own sources instead of making use of a psychologist. I´m not judging or dismissing the chance cuz I do enjoy to converse. I guess if you are not sure of who you are and you don´t find yourself you could use some help but when you know your Inner n´Outter "YOU" it´s pointless. It´s a matter of doing what you ought to do, not have nor must but "OUGHT TO". Regardless of what´s going on with me and my own world I think I have to make a better use of my hierarchy. I should find a book a good book and swim into IT.- I can´t go on cuz I gotta go. I gotta run. My friends are having a gorgeous BBQ and I need to be there. I have some very cool and interesting ideas that I will share with yall soon very soon. ok? Yall take care now...
It couldn´t be more perfect. Imagine what it´s like to be there LIVE.- Hell NO!
I had to escape The city was sticky and cruel Maybe I should have called you first But I was dying to get to you I was dreaming while I drove The long straight road ahead,uh huh yea
Could taste your sweet kisses Your arms open wide This fever for you is just burning me up inside
I drove all night..... to get to you Is that alright? I drove all night........... Crept in your room Woke you from your sleep To make love to you Is that alright? I drove all night
What in this world Keeps us from falling apart? No matter where I go I hear The beating of our one heart I think about you When the night is cold and dark, uh huh yea No one can move me The way that you do Nothing erases this feeling between me and you
I drove all night....... to get to you Is that alright? I drove all night........ Crept in your room Woke you from your sleep To make love to you Is that alright? I drove all night (hold)
I could taste your sweet kisses Your arms open wide This fever for you is just burning me up inside(hold)
I drove all night to get to you Is that alright? I drove all night Crept in your room Is that alright? I drove all night(hold)
The video is the Acapella version which is fab.- Enjoy Bitches!
Hey there Delilah What's it like in New York City? I'm a thousand miles away But girl tonight you look so pretty Yes you do Times Square can't shine as bright as you I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen Close your eyes Listen to my voice it's my disguise I'm by your side
Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me
Hey there Delilah I know times are getting hard But just believe me girl Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good We'll have the life we knew we would My word is good
Hey there Delilah I've got so much left to say If every simple song I wrote to you Would take your breath away I'd write it all Even more in love with me you'd fall We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far But they've got planes and trains and cars I'd walk to you if I had no other way Our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know That none of them have felt this way Delilah I can promise you That by the time we get through The world will never ever be the same And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah You be good and don't you miss me Two more years and you'll be done with school And I'll be making history like I do You know it's all because of you We can do whatever we want to Hey there Delilah here's to you This ones for you
Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me.
Here I am I'm too shy to show you my vunerable side I'm too near to make it clear emotional suicide Is this love I'm thinking of I know that *know that* Close the latch I can't attach I'm sure that *I'm sure that*
Here I am, I can't give you anything Here I stand, I can't turn away Here I am, don't want to cause you pain Here I stand, alone and on my own again
Death an act of Heaven slept I'm a crazy... lazy Fall so deep then I can't sleep, I'm slippin' into hazy *hazy* Want to share but it's not there, and tell me why *why* Laugh to live no tears to cry, and I really, want to *cry*
Here I am, I can't give you anything Here I stand, I can't turn away Here I am, don't want to cause you pain Here I stand, alone and on my own again
Here I am
Here I am, Here I stand On my own again *on my own again* Here I am, don't wanna cause you pain Here I stand, alone and on my own again
Here I am, Here I stand, oh here I stand Here I am, Here I am, oh here I am Here I stand, Here I am, Here I stand, Here I am
*Pic is completely... out of the line! But it don´t matter. It´s MIAMI.- *Lyrics were part of my trip on that Fucking 166 Bus.-
Madison Square Garden... I mean, could it get any better? Besides my passion for New York City.. I think The Big Apple will be home and or Uhmm sort of a TimeShare Hehe! I don´t know. Regardless yall know u´ll find me out there eating hot dogs @ Central Park after some hours of wealthy fine-ASS! top drawer ART from the MET! which I ADORE!! A walk in the park.. some cigs, some music, or some nature sounds. Who knows..? Maybe the Zoo but I don´t think so.. Hehe! Anyway.. I´m soo HOOD!!! (8). Ok.. I´m back.. So basically Christmas is over.. I just got up like an hour ago. 3:21 am. BTW I thought it was PM! But I guess I got over it.. I didn´t want to write about my Xmas Celebration. It was completely irrelevant and so was my party I mean to be honest with yall I had a BLAST (like Helen would say..Aww I miss my Helen sooo much... ) I had such a good time with friends.. Smthn´ like (Party like a rock star (8) ). Good Lord I drunk a lot! Why? Why would I? Such an ASS! I would never drink again. LIAR! Besides the drinking, partying, eating, and everything with ing.- The reason why it all started with that Justin Timberlake pic was cuz a very special someone (friend =) gave me that as my Xmas Present which I loved. That DVD is Hella-Good! I so enjoyed that thang´ THANKS THANKS THANKS! Justin Timberlake .. according to ME, he is a very good musician, artist and singer, NOT a good ACTOR tho. but you know you can´t have it all. can you? CAN YOU? I was soo happy with that present... cuz we tend to get together and wath some recitals, shows, concerts, music videos and stuff like that when we get 2gether. This is sooo LAME... if you got to this part... OMG! .. please... GET A LIFE or maybe YOU can call me .. and since we don´t got any... we can like you know add up more people and commit suicide. Before I go I will leave you a nice video and or pic.. for you to have a little something... I have thousands of things to say... but I got distracted by someone, consequently, I can´t go on.. I´ma try to go to bed. I know I can´t leave like this.. so basically make sure you watch that show! It´s very very good! I could´ve gone in Vegas.. but I didn´t Im such an A-hole! No, actually I was broke that´s why. But I could ve gone for free.. I guess I was ekjwheiunlkjññcnñqwxnixñuefwenwñkjvewfñewduehñfwfewnkjvbvñkwrjbwñj or something. Bye Bitches I luv yall!.
Enjoy the video..... (the quality of the video ain´t that good..but Im tired. plus who cares I got the original one it don´t matter it´s YOU ppl who r gonna watch it)
I was to express myself in Spanish, but I found some thoughts in my mind which unfortunately can’t be translated. I never would, plus according to what one of my French teachers told me, the meaning of "translation" has a negative connotation, which means to cheat, betrayal, etc. So basically I will not do it. Plus, why would I? The music flows with my thoughts, my words, my feelings too. I’m not in a position to tell my head what to do because I think there is something in the middle which makes it complicated, a thing called Heart? It’s really kind of hard to stop thinking about it and just move on. I’ve done it before though, but there is a stage in life where you bring into concrete existence the fact that you can’t go against your heart. Sometimes the feelings are way too strong to go against them. So you try to think and avoid all these things going through your heart, head, mind, body, etc. It’s everywhere, but you can’t touch it, you can only feel it. It’s similar to be wearing goggles at all times. Goggles that make you smile, blush, warm, and lots of diverse peculiar, but pleasant and out of the ordinary sensations. Something new, something odd, something that you like to feel. In this case the goggles are some kind of apparatus that covers your eyes and is used to enhance vision, vision from your heart. Is this love? Passion? Excitement? Obsession? You don’t know, but it’s hard to become conscious, only because your heart is dictating. You think you can handle it, we all do, but you always end up doing what your heart wants to do. I personally think that we are meant to suffer; suffering is not bad as long as enjoyment comes afterwards. Easiness bores me. It might sound a little weird and bizarre and odd all at the same time. But ladies and gentlemen, that’s how it is, and so far I’ve heard this is LOVE. So don’t just misuse your time trying to fool your heart, use your brain to make it better. Be smart and Love; worship everything and everyone around you. Never lose faith or the power to find love. Love is in you. And to end up with another story of my own, I would like to paraphrase something that I’ve heard and a phrase that has a lot of meaning for me:
…” The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love …and be loved, in return”…
Just think about it,
Carson.-
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Carson.-
"If I had another chance tonight I'd try to tell you that the things we had were right"
Claro está que todos hemos caminado alguna vez por “l´Florida Street” (calle Florida). Miles de cosas, pero debo empezar por algún lado no? Siempre lleno de toda la “garbage” (basura) que la gente fea tira, eso sí que NO es Actitud Buenos Aires (A+). Hay “dust” (polvo) por todos lados MAL. El “smell” (olor) que hay es TE RRI BLE!!! Encima tenés lo que quieras. Yo lo describiría como la feria de las NATIONALITIES hah! Claro, tenés música de lo que quieras. O sea en una cuadra tenés un grupete de RASTAFARIS con toda la ONDA pero MIL eh? Y te re emocionas… haha así es como comienza la aventura. A todo esto uno sigue caminando y te chocas con 20.000 personas simultáneamente al mismo tiempo, a la vez! (valga la redundancia).. fue un JOKE!. Bueno y tipo te re copan los RASTAS porque le dan un toque COOL. Seguís caminando y aparece la versión BOLIVIANA de TITANIC… ahaha esa es SU BLI ME!. Además el señor hace que toca el “instrument” y es re mentira porque tiene un CD puesto! Haha.. (no sé si es Boliviano, capaz es de Cuyo pero re parece Boliviano). También hay otro grupo, que para mí tipo NIDA que nos mientan, son todos una misma familia y se separan haciendo de cuenta que son dos bandas diferentes, un HO RROR. Después tenes un viejo que se cree que es director de Orquesta y se la re cree mal.. Onda se re compenetra con un “Stick” (palillo) que tiene, MAL!! Asimismo está el grupo de bolivianos (lo escribí en minúscula porque el WORD me lo marco como que estaba mal con mayúscula, lo cual fue bi za rro tipo Microsoft re discrimina a los bolitas) posta que son una familia y cantan y tocan los diferentes instrumentos de viento construidos por ellos mismos y te re quieren encajar el cd MIL, pero la hija que es la que los vende, está re podrida y le pone ZERO ganas! onda se hace la yo soy PORTEÑA haha! y se pone una riñonera que es lo peor que hay. Ya que estamos con la música no puedo pasar por alto a los pseudos musimundo (léase: locales que venden cd´s dvd´s etc.. lo conocido como "disqueria" con un terrible cartel de SALE y DESCUENTO en la entrada, lo cual es muy raro porque niii tienen puerta haha) haha! Que tipo Le dan duro y parejo al Tango Electrónico a más no poder o sea dale!!! YA FUE! Y re sabés que el TURISTA te va a comprar tango, lo tengas a todo “volume” o no! Igual me gusta, me parece requete diver. No solo hay música y “gente por doquier” sobre l´florida, sino que también están los “seller” (vendedores) ambulantes que te venden lo que quieras, tenés todo tipo de “gadget” (aparato) para hacer masajes, desde la cabeza a los pies. Además te venden juguetes importados de la CHINA y TAIWAN mal…. Muñecas, muñecos, osos, de todo. El clásico es el PORTA cd´s! haha encima te aclaran que también podés poner DVD´s lo cual es más que opfio pero bueno no se le puede pedir demasiado a la "madame" "m´am" (señora) que lo vende. Últimamente le están dando duro y parejo al saca pelusas del sweater y/o pulóver, encima incluye baterías onda te re conviene comprarlo porque no tenes que comprar las pilas para poder usarlo, mientras vas por l´florida caminando te vas sacando las pelusas. Lo que me llama la atención es la cantidad de estatuas vivientes que hay, es algo ZAR PA DO! Yo recuerdo que era un “enfant” (niño) cuando fuimos a l´Europa, y me sorprendía ver tantas estatuas vivientes, cosa que en Buenos Aires niii se veía y ahora me encuentro caminando por l´florida y cada 3 pasos tenes estatuas vivientes, es algo GRO SO!. nii compararlo con l´europa pero bueh! Esto supera muchísimo eso… haha! Y hay bailarines por doquier, te bailan tango te bailan folklore te bailan lo que quieras!! Haha (cuanto queré papa?? haha) encima tipo reúnen a la gente y después le re piden “l´argent” ($$$$ Money cash coins plata).. y sumado a la señora que esta en la puerta de Galerías Pacifico con la cruz y las estampitas que te quiere vender. También hay gente de diferentes religiones tipo los budas y demás.. que quieren venderte libros y "engatusarte" para que te re hagas de su RE LI GION! mil.. Más la gente de la calle que te piden plata y o te roban! es asi tipo re "JUNGLE" (jungla). Tenés millones de puestos de diarios y revistas (puestos colorados hahaha que ahora tambien te venden peliculas, dvd´s, musica, posters, pins, etc.. es cuasi-maxikiosko) TO TAL! y también los que te venden flores (que son re verdes y huelen muy mal ). Hay muchísimos locales y negocios, de comidas, ropa, kioscos, etc.… El olor es insoportable! Es una mezcla nauseabunda de olores feos que también proviene de la gente. Hahaha!. Creo que lo rescatable es el aroma que emana Falabella, tipo porque está JOT! Hah… como dice l´valeria haha! Horrible el olor a Mcdonalds y demás locales. Además en 8 cuadras hay 17 Mcdonalds, es una cosa terrible, pasas caminando y te quedas con el fuerte olor a "cuarto de libra" en la clothe (ropa)!!! Bueno y no faltan los 48 bolsazos que te comes, 35 mochilazos, te empujan, te llevan por delante, te tocan bocina, nadie respeta un semaforo, es un caos TO TAL, siempre hay algún FANA sacando FOTOS! hay de todo... mal... La gente no sabe caminar es un HO RROR, encima están todos re apurados y entre la gente que esta dando vueltas porque esta la pedo y la gente que esta apurada porque esta trabajando, mas los turistas que están dándole duro y parejo al shopping y demás…Pero bueh.. es lo que hay, l´florida es así. Hay más, no, me equivoco no hay más HAY TONS MORE onda muchísimo más pero MAL eh?!?.. . pero bueh.. me re cansé de escribir! Haha…. Saludos. Y hasta la próxima. That’s all for now folks! Boo Ya!...
Well Well Well... I saw so many bizarre things yesterday.. I mean for a moment I was like.. WTF?? This ain´t right! But you know me 3 seconds afterwards I was all freacking out cuz I came up to the fact that I was in Buenos Aires. Damn It! Not only that but.. I was riding the BUS! I mean THE BUS! And I asked myself: ¨Do I really want this?¨ And that´s when it all starts... I knew it.. There´s a moment I should´ve stopped! That´s when I became this thing outta control with my:
"If Only......"
Yeah right like if that would take me somewhere.... Well at least the bus ride was shorter! IT looked shorter.. It seemed shorter.. Anyway... it don´t matter.
An empty stomach, why?? Could I be any more STUPID? Uhmm.. No, I don´t think SO! Everybody is like totally wrong! Running around buying Xmas presents for WHO? I ain´t buying NO Xmas gift for no one. I ain´t CHEAP sista.. it´s just that you know.. I just got back.. And I bought presents already... with some exceptions obviously. Nobody knows? Of course they do... Some people aren´t brave enough... They don´t have what it takes, you know? I´m sooo full of it and this is so fucking random.. like if it makes sence aight? Hahah! Are you on crack or something? Anyway... so the summer begun.. What does that mean? Will it be warmer cuz it don´t seem like it! I love how I find myself TRIPPIN´over something that I´m still not sure if it´s real. I can´t wait to have my computer back, cuz this one is like kinda oldish.. ya know? And I´m so in love with my laptop but I can´t hook it up on with this "cheap-ass-dsl" It wont happen... I promise.. OMG!! I soo wanna start with all my weird out of the line stories ´bout Vegas, New York, St. Louis, Scott City, Memphis, Denver, Chicago, Miami, etc... But yall know it ain´t the right time. I am to leave yall now... Don´t forget that Xmas is fast approaching... !! I wish yall the best.!!! Good Luck!.... Hard to follow? Will do better!
Sincerely,
Carson McKenzie.-
Enjoy yall.....
"I see you, you with him He ain’t right but you don’t trip You stand by while he lies then turn right round and forgive.-"
...J'ai compris tous les mots, j'ai bien compris, merci
Mature is the word I was looking for this morning... Damn YOU r so into it. I´m Sorry for I moment I believed it was TRUE. Once, someone told me:
"...He comes up with the most out of the line SHIT you will ever hear..."
I thougth the song thang was gonna be over by now but NO! (it ain´t over Sistaaaaas) Its just like a ritual, I get up and I hear Tracy Chapman repeating and repeating..
" Give me one reason to stay here -and I´ll turn right back around"
I was like hell NO, why would you get involved in something that you are not even sure you want it. What? I dont know exactly what but that something could help you out or not. If it does it aint doin´ anything good it´s just a lame excuse to cover things up. Like a maid we had once, she was fucking hillarious! She would literally DO NOTHING... I was a KID and I remember myself telling my Mom, like if she would do something about it. The thing is that she was so used to it, cuz my sista n´ I would always complain on the maid. DAMN!!! I wanna be a child again you know what I mean?
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Bastard.-
a: an offensive or disagreeable person —used as a generalized term of abuse.
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They kind that only comes from high above it ain´t REAL! I thought I was looking for SURREAL instead I found myself wihtout it. But apparently I was wrong, I had it! The moment is OVER! Maybe that´s what I wanna believe. My Own World...
"Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore"
OMG! Ok, so this morning I got up and again it was around 6am. My sleep is like completely fucked up but I couldn´t care less cuz Im on sabbatical not for a long time tho. I felt like writing It´s like a new thing... But it don´t matter I will just share the song cuz y´all deserve it. Why would you name it Bed? The song literally makes me wanna hug. Plus there are like thousands of memories and a sequence of images in my head. I so miss it but its time to settle back down here. It ain´t the time to write... but I´m just filling the blank u know?
I really thought it was gonna be so much easier,I know me even more.
Another thing that really freaks me out is the how people depend on people. What the fuck is wrong with us I mean why can´t we solve our own problems? Why would you ask someone? Why would you have to be adviced and not just act based upon your instinct. Somehow for a moment we will all look happy. I will come back later with more.
"When I put my fingers through your hairWrap me up in your legs& love you till your eyes roll backI'm tryin to put you to bed, bed, bedI'mma put you to bed, bed, bedThen I'ma rock your bodyTurn you overLove is a warI'm your soldierTouchin you like it's our first timeI'mma put you to bed, bed, bedI'ma put you to bed, bed, bed "
